It's honestly embarrassing to be laid off (it's been hard to explain to potential employers, recruiters, and I cannot BELIEVE I wrote it in this blog!). And it's a bit frustrating as well...I mean, really, believe me, there has never been a more dedicated employee than me, not even Bob Cratchit working on Christmas Eve wasn't as dedicated. Although I know the books better than anyone, and know there were no other options, so it was nice that I was the last non-owner employee left (even though I was originally supposed to go with the second round). But I didn't go to law school and work my ass off to be licensed in two states to be laid off. This doesn't happen to me!!!! It happens to low level employees, not Controllers or In-House Attorneys! But I'm realizing my hang-ups weren't true. I am not alone and the economy still sucks! I also need to remember that you have to take risks in life - some pay off and unfortunately some don't. Ageless allowed me to figure out that I might want a different career path than previously imagined. I am SO glad that I decided to go for my MBA. I can't wait to start - maybe I'll be a professional student - a CPA wouldn't be that much longer, would it? And if I'm always in school I never have to pay back my student loans do I? (Totally kidding!!!)
But enough about that - no one really wants to hear anymore self-pity! Back to K-man...
As you can see from the first picture, Kellan and Sonya have reached some kind of an understanding, and they now occasionally snuggle in the mornings. I think Sonya has finally realized that Kellan is really the bread and butter of her living and she should tolerate him, although this week she's taken to trying to knock him down when he runs - he laughs and it's honestly funny unless she's successful. But really, the kid asks to take her on walks and to the park (to bark at anything that moves), demands she visits Grandma and Papa, and constantly drops food for her. All she has to put up with is a little "bad dog" and finger pointing - don't know where he picked that up?!?! :)
And we love our new neighborhood! We have some great neighbors, two wonderful parks in close walking distance (and I'm told by Joe several others beyond that, but close works for me), and the best part is it's clean (most of the time - and honestly my recently developed OCD version of not clean is clean to most people). Kellan likes the opportunity to have two homes - one is "Mama, Papa and Kellan's house" (my parents - although sometimes he tells my mom she doesn't live there) and the other house is "Mah home".
He has SO many words now too! He's getting good at colors, can count to three (hey, it's the little things), and even has some 5 word sentences. It's amazing to watch him learn and figure things out!! He's into anything cars related. I can't watch Cars or Cars 2 (or Monsters, Inc.) one more time...although I know I'll see all three at least twice tomorrow. :) But he now thinks it's cool to watch them on the MacBook - "Book", not to be confused with the "Pad" or "T" (MacBook, iPad, TV) - so I can ignore them a little easier. And he is absolutely enamored with My Gym now! He does all of the circle times, gymnastics and independent activities. He knows the opening and closing routines and is just a total ham. I love watching him do it, and the rest of the parents get a chuckle out of his enthusiasm! It's probably something we really need to cut from our budget right now, but I can't bear to do it because he just loves it so much. Plus the summer offers unlimited classes, so I'm hoping to try out other days and see if I can find a mommy I like for play dates. :) I get to have play dates now! :) His latest and greatest is that he wants to do everything by himself. "No mama, I'll do it". As you can see below, he's really just too cool for me already! Ha!
So it's kind of exciting now to have the opportunity to spend more time at home with him. It's only been a week and a half, and I'll admit it was scary and overwhelming at first - I mean come on, I don't do the dishes, laundry, cooking, cleaning, or really much of anything at home thanks to my wonderful husband, but now I feel the need to do it (a) because I'm home and why shouldn't I (so not as easy as it always seemed from a working mom's perspective), (b) it gives me a sense of accomplishing something on a daily basis, and (c) I am finding that I enjoy doing most of those things...for now at least. Although terrified of not being able to find something new - who wants a former litigator / contracts attorney that lightly dabbled in contracts for the last five years, but really was more of an accountant without an accounting degree - I really am excited to have more time with K. And maybe more time to blog...time will tell I guess!
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